WTF. I am completely speechless. I just found out that the first guy that I was like in love with is married and has a baby. WTF! I’m not really sure how I feel about this. I mean, I’m not in love with him anymore but I do tend to linger on the memories. I wish I could feel really happy and overjoyed for him because his wife is really sweet but I don’t feel that. I think its the shock that’s making me unable to express what exactly it is that I’m feeling. I guess I just wish I had found out sooner rather than just now. Ugh! I wish I could properly verbalize how I feel. :-/ I may continue this later, Idk. I think I just need to gather my thoughts right now.