C'est La Vie, I realize that its been an incredibly long time...

I realize that its been an incredibly long time since I’ve written anything but, as of now I’m still trying to figure some stuff out. Its all so overwhelming and stressful and I’m trying my best to keep my head above the water but I can’t help but feel like I’m slowly drowning. If it wasn’t for my friends and the amazing music that I take part of, I’m pretty sure I’d lose my mind. But what I really need right now is some sense of security, peace and stability. I need balance in myself and in my life. All I can think of right now is…..God PLEASE help me!