So I seemed to have screwed myself over big time. About a month ago I kissed a friend (who was actually just a friend at the time; totally platonic), after that I seriously regretted it cause I had feelings for someone else. I hoped and prayed that the kiss would blow over and be forgotten when we both met up again and I suppose it did to a point but not in the way I thought. Yes, things are still cool with us but it’s like there’s this sexual tension. Like we’re friends but we could always be a little than friends at times if we want. Problem is that he is now seeing someone but still has the nerve to “booty txt” me. And on top of that, although I am insulted by the fact, part of me can’t help but want to see how far we can take this. This is sick! I’ve never liked that girl nor did I ever want to be her and yet I can’t get him or the “possibilities” out of my mind. All the while I’m not even sure if I’m over the other guy who I’ve had feels for for months. I don’t know what to do. Clearly the first kiss (which was induced by far too much alcohol) was my undoing. Ugh! I know this isn’t right, and I know I shouldn’t…..well just shouldn’t. But if he were to txt or call me again and invite me over to “hang out”, I’m not sure if I would say no. And if I did and he were still seeing the same girl or any girl at all, I would feel like shit and have lost total respect for myself along with all my friends who would feel the same. I’m not that girl and yet not turning into her is starting to be the hardest thing. Fuh-k!