So ever since I came back home for the summer, things have been pretty good and I’m really happy with the decision I made. However, I’m still confused about everything. Confused about how I feel, what I’m gonna do and whether or not I should stay in LA for the long hall. I keep waiting for something great to happen to me whether it be love, opportunity or clarity. I’m not really sure what to do with myself and I’m not really liking this feeling. I’m 22 years old and I feel just as lost in the world as when I did when I was 16. There should be more to my life than what there’s been thus far and I know I’m to blame. I let my fear get a hold of me and keep me back. I can’t help but want to hide and shield myself from the things that scare me the most. I guess I’m just afraid to not be invisible when contrary to the fact, I want people to see me. I’m not really sure what to do or what the next step is in this equation. One thing is for sure, I can add this on the list of: Things that sucked in 2011.